Food/exercise Log: A look back
So I got several notifications from a tumblr user who liked several of my old food logs. It was an evolution. I saw myself in the depths of my disordered eating patterns (which I was in near tears about a 1200 calorie day because it was too high) to the later ones where I was coming out of it and feeling strong for 2000 calorie days (which admittedly still bother me if I count them which is why I don’t keep track anymore but instead eat by feel- yes easier said than done). I had honestly forgotten that I had kept track of this and it is a VERY helpful thing for me to look at now. While at first it was triggering, now I can look and see that I am so much happier now than when I was at my skinniest. I am healthy and I constantly felt fatigued because I was not eating enough to sustain myself. Now I feel strong.
One of my favorite quotes I found was this:
"he may be an older guy but he runs a 5K every day almost so I have respect since I cannot manage that nor will I ever be able to just run a 5k"
I ran a 5k on Friday. I ran a marathon last October. I wrote this in July of 2012. I ran my first 5k race in July of 2013. A year is huge.I have come so far and I have worked so hard. Whenever I think about restricting, I need to remember this moment, because I see now why not letting food control me is actually how I can take control of my life.
PS: bananacreamcupcakes , couldn’t find your ask, but you liked both good and bad days. Just curious, how did you find these old posts what were you searching and what lead you to like them?
It’s been crazy
but glow run summary: Accidental PR
whoops, but hey I’m excited. Just wish I wasn’t trying to hold back so much .
23:50 for those who are curious (hey I know I’m slow but it’s called a PR for a reason :) personal accomplishment)
i’ve gone on 2.5 runs today and also walked at least 4 miles so basically I’m exhausted (and yet somewhat debating going for another short run because it’s too early to go to bed yet but I can’t study anymore I’m so stressed)
Sometimes I just want to do it like Forrest Gump: run.
Run until I’m empty, cleansed and pure again.
Run until I’ve sucked up enough of nature and air.
Just run and forget that the world is ending.
Just run and know that this is not the end.
No, unfortunately I do not have another marathon on the horizon. However, i am going to train with the group here at school that is running Chicago with Team World Vision this October. i wish with all my heart I could join them, but since I don’t know where I will be post-grad I didn’t sign up. also, since I am still feeling some pain and recovering from my broken hip from last year’s marathon, I figure I better play it safe and stick to 5ks and halfs for now. I’m going to follow the marathon training plan they have set, it’s fairly easy and will build back my strength and distance gradually. I will just have to remember to not overdo it. That’s my running plan.
also, Glow run 5k on Friday! I’m stoked and group run on Saturday, And next weekend is the Run for it 5k if you don’t know what that is look it up! I’m gonna be a virtual runner since I can’t make it to Florida where TWLOHA is having the actual race, but still running it at the same time as everyone else is pretty cool. :)